I come home in exactly one week and about 12 hours. I cannot wait, though I am quite scared to go home where I know there is distruction still from the tornados, stupid weather.It really does scare me, but I have got to go home, huh? anyways, I am missing some people more than I thought I would. Of course I was going to miss Jeni, and momo and dad, and jeff and the guys, but I miss friends at school more than O thought I would, like Maggie and Aj and KT and Krissa. It's just interesting to think a semester went by without me there, and everyone survived. I don't mean that in a pigheaded way, but you always have that fear that either you are going ot miss somehting amazing or something so tragic you will never catch up. It seems neither has happened, life just went on. Just like it did at home... time just get going... life kept on living. I've been writing a lot more lately, and I don't know if it is up to my callabre, but oh well. It just feels good to write it all out. Ya know? Tonight I think I am treating my self to a cheap movie on my own. A time to blend into the seats and dissapear for a few hours. One of the reasons I love my profession. I get to let everyone else shine while I get to hide and watch. Very exciting. I've finally gotten happy with myself... in ALL aspects. Yes, I am appoligetic... get the hell over it. If you don't like it, leave me alone. I like to please those around me... again, get over it. I treat you well, and ask for nothing in return, so be grateful. I love with all of my heart and frequently get hurt. I am realizing this is not pathetic or weak, but rather an amazing quality. It just means that I know how it feels to love and I am not afraid of it, like so many people I know. I am slightly bipolar. This one is hard to find good in, all I can think of is it is fun and entertaining to see me switch from persona to persona, knowing that both are me fully, just different sides. Also it is fun for me to be able to express all sides of me wihtout catering to one side. I am a true Gemini and I love it. It just means you get two women for the price of one, lucky bastard. I am loud sometimes. Why is it bad to laugh out loud? I think it is the best sound in the world. I have doubts about myself... this just means I am not cocky and that I know I have plenty of room to grow. Finally, I am afraid of being alone. This to me has just become a great reason and a lucky thing for my future whatever (bf or husband) because it means that I need him. And it is good to need and be needed in return. "Don't let someone be your priority when you are just their option" One of my favorite quotes. Well, signing out and trying to get one of my final papers done. Yes, we have final papers over here in London!