tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59167562011-08-04T10:24:39.813-07:00It's My Life...I want change, I want something to excite me.
I want change, I want someone who will need me.
I want softness and seduction, passion and attention.
I want someone to believe in...Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.comBlogger1201100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1160627826164369972006-10-11T21:28:00.000-07:002006-10-11T21:37:06.176-07:00So it is approx. half way through my first semester as a senior. And it's been amazing. Mostly it's been a roller coaster, but we've gotten through our first big show (Crucible) and it feels good to have a little downtime before Lucky Stiff. The most I can say about the choices I have made this semester are as follows: no matter if they were good or bad choices, they've been my choices and I Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1146358065563560762006-04-29T17:40:00.000-07:002006-04-29T17:47:45.576-07:00Let's see. So much to tell. I went to our formal with a friend and had an amazing time. I have been going through a lot of things, and frankly I want them all to be over. I'm tired of being used by people who are supposed to be my close friends, and maybe even more. Anyways, Sugar is almost done, thank god, and I can start to breathe again. Which is good, you can't live without breathing, did youMelissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1142302067951069862006-03-13T17:58:00.000-08:002006-03-13T18:07:47.966-08:00so, time has flown, aj and i broke up and he is now happy with a new girl, congrats to him... eleemosynary has to be done by friday, so i'm seriously stressing about that, and i'm sick as a dog, so that doesn't help. i'm tired a lot, so i've been sleeping a lot.... woot!!!!!maggie has been taking care of me like a mother and i owe her a lot. temp got scary high on saturday night and would have Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1140423824727042372006-02-20T00:13:00.001-08:002006-02-20T00:23:44.736-08:00It's been a long ass time..... damn.... my life is virtually completely different then the last time we chatted. AJ and I have now been together for a month, and are very happy. It is amazing how not weird it is, only someone who has started dating a dear friend would understand what i mean. instead of the scary butterflies i use to get i now get calm smiles and peace... i like it a lot. it makesMelissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1140423807615415462006-02-20T00:13:00.000-08:002006-02-20T00:23:27.626-08:00It's been a long ass time..... damn.... my life is virtually completely different then the last time we chatted. AJ and I have now been together for a month, and are very happy. It is amazing how not weird it is, only someone who has started dating a dear friend would understand what i mean. instead of the scary butterflies i use to get i now get calm smiles and peace... i like it a lot. it makesMelissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1133295836995050222005-11-29T12:10:00.000-08:002005-11-29T12:23:57.006-08:00I come home in exactly one week and about 12 hours. I cannot wait, though I am quite scared to go home where I know there is distruction still from the tornados, stupid weather.It really does scare me, but I have got to go home, huh? anyways, I am missing some people more than I thought I would. Of course I was going to miss Jeni, and momo and dad, and jeff and the guys, but I miss friends at Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1128178722812552452005-10-01T16:00:00.000-07:002005-10-01T07:58:44.156-07:00Hello everyone... i wrote a long post like a week ago, but it was lost, of course, so I have been seeting silently. also our internet doesn't work right now, so there isn't regular checking of emails and such. i'm doing the best i can though. tonight is shinzman's birthday, and we're pub crawling all night long, however i just looked outside and he sky is a horrible grey color, so we might have Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1127768301299837632005-09-26T22:00:00.000-07:002005-09-26T13:58:21.336-07:00hello. long time no talk. i am sitting here with baby poo on my head. it is actually henna hair dye, but it looks and smells like baby poo. arika and i had to clean everything up afterwards so it better be worth it. i'm cranky today and am not sure if it's because of the lack of food or love. yes, male love. i'm not ashamed to tell you this, the other night i hung out with a guy and we fooled Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1126556933607515972005-09-12T13:14:00.000-07:002005-09-12T13:28:53.613-07:00Hello my loves. I have been in London for a little more than a week and I have so much to tell you guys. Too much has happened that I cannot express right now. There have, however, been tears, laughs, injuries, and phenominal views. We have goten our trip toRome set, I am in the process of geting everyhing set for Amsterdam with Cory, Drew W. and who knows who else. I am learning slowly that Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1125430447668252242005-08-30T14:32:00.000-07:002005-08-30T12:34:07.673-07:00It's the 30th and I have been done with the movie for about 4 days now. The last day and a half were a nightmare. Nick felt compitency level was so far below Em's that he felt the need to constantly make fun of me for it. To my face and behind my back. I have never felt more ignorant in my life. It hurts my haert to know that somebody dilliberatly made the concious (and yes i know my spelling Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1124870920582726242005-08-24T03:06:00.000-07:002005-08-24T01:08:40.643-07:00So tonight is the guys' last night here in eville... haha... and it is the bust anyone coulod expect. em and jon are in bed already, joe has curled up in his bed and is ready to get up early in the morning. at 9:30 i have to go over to jolie's house and babysit zoe even though it is the last day. i talked to mom today and she wants me home tomorrow night. i will be, i just don't know what time. Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1124788696172504952005-08-23T04:16:00.000-07:002005-08-23T02:19:40.960-07:00so i'm sitting here again... at nick's (my director) house. vanessa is about to leave. her plane leaves at about 5 am, so we are sitting up and chatting. em and jon are already in bed, so i am left up here with three very intelectual people and one man who is so involved in his movies and ideas that i can't keep up. they are talking about movies and reasons why one is good and one isn't. even Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1124608803507005372005-08-21T00:07:00.000-07:002005-08-21T02:52:23.546-07:00so i'm sitting here at my director's house waiting for the director, leading man, and cameraman to get back from shooting at buy-low. my phone is dead, i'm horny as hell, and i'm tired as shit. isn't this a nice post so far? actually i'm mad at myself because i can't stop swearing.....like can't at all.... and i haven't been able to talk to my friends for days.... hence leaving me in the dark on Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1122866984288753632005-07-31T20:13:00.000-07:002005-07-31T20:29:44.293-07:00hello loves... so i finally have found a lovely lady to take over my sublease in the woods. for the entire year. YES!!!!!!!! so, so, so happy... oh, today was the meeting for the movie i will be working on. i was not aware that i would be script girl and documentor of every frame... not every tape or even scene, EVERY FRAME of the movie, aka increasing my responsibilities BUKOO amounts. Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1121900176806452152005-07-20T17:56:00.000-07:002005-07-20T15:56:16.810-07:00hello!!!! so, i have two....TWO days until I am heading up North to see my baby, Arika. So, so excited. Sun and fun and relaxation. Thought about stoppin a few places, but I don't know. Oh, by the way, London is in....what did you say...damnstraight....in 1 MONTH!!!!! Well, a little more than that, but close enough. Again, can't freaking wait. Update: I will be working on a zombie movie from theMelissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1121229342305523022005-07-12T23:32:00.000-07:002005-07-12T21:35:42.310-07:00so....long time no talk...i've been cheating on you with myspace. i'm sorry!!! if anyone still reads this, then i should tell you i have a week and a half left at new harmony theatre, then i am out of town to see arika and her family, maybe some other people if they would like that, and then back home on the 28th so i can work on my first EVER movie. shan needed some help for the movie she is Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1117397679250781042005-05-29T15:14:00.000-07:002005-05-29T13:14:39.256-07:00hello beasts and beastettes! life is calming down a little down here. and getting better and better. job is starting to kick some nice ass. finally. the show's coming together great and it goes up june 10th, so wish me luck with my first professional show. ;) umm...missing my friends horribly, don't really get to talk to them a lot, but as soon as my contract is over i'm coming up to see my Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1116455270545295962005-05-18T17:27:00.000-07:002005-05-18T15:27:50.550-07:00I'M HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Friends please call me. I lost some of my Newburghian numbers one night when I dropped my phone in something unnamed... teeheehee..... I'll never forget spin the bottle loves. Anyways, job starts tomorrow, thank god!!! Can't wait. I miss my friends from school already... I'll come visit soon punks. Muah!Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1115275653569573422005-05-05T01:49:00.000-07:002005-05-04T23:47:33.573-07:00so mr. pelz feels it's time for me to update, so here goes: london is coming faster and faster and sanity farther and farther ;) actually life is amazing but very stressful at this moment in time... cory and i booked our flights for london today (so excited) so i finally can say i'm officially going. i've lost weight, yay! i've gained money, also yay! i'm getting sick-booooo.... :( oh well....Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1114570323436062042005-04-26T19:51:00.000-07:002005-04-26T19:52:03.436-07:00ENFJ- The TeacherYou scored 72% I to E, 36% N to S, 14% F to T, and 47% J to P!Your type is known as the teacher, or the educating mentor. You also belong to the larger group, called idealists. You tend to bring out the best in other people. You lead without seeming to do so. People are naturally drawn to you. You expect the very best from people which takes the form of enthusiastic encouragementMelissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1114115090064677182005-04-21T15:24:00.000-07:002005-04-21T13:24:50.066-07:00joann fabrics is killing me...but i've lost two inches in my waist so i'm happy about that...woot.i miss the boys in 104... can you believe in less then a month I will be home for the summer and already working for New Harmony? hard core happiness there. I'm going to miss so many people, though, when summer comes. But before I can think about summer, I can think about the trip on wednesday with Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1113153920684158162005-04-10T12:25:00.000-07:002005-04-10T10:25:20.686-07:00last night was the formal....a huge hit if i do say so myself! i'm so proud of us, pledgers!!! yay....can't wai to send everyone pictures....aww..... amazing night with amazing friends...went to my first delta sig party and it was so much fun... gray shirt boy was hott and fun to talk to, but i totally forget his name...oops! next arika and i went to tony's (first time, love the apt!!!) and hung Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1113153369100667502005-04-10T10:15:00.000-07:002005-04-10T10:16:31.296-07:00Your Seduction Style: The NaturalYou don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.What Is Your Seduction Style?Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1112753490079216122005-04-05T21:15:00.000-07:002005-04-05T19:15:37.176-07:00after an amazing road trip, a blizzard, and an amazing bonding experience I finally know what to do... thank you, god, for putting so many amazing people in my life :)to all of my friends who know me best..... there have been noticable changes in me.....i've forgotten how to smile.... tragic for somebody who used to be so happy..... don't worry..... you get to see my pearly whites again :) Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1112740869953399142005-04-05T15:40:00.000-07:002005-04-05T15:41:09.953-07:00If you read this,you must make a comment ofa memory you have of me.It can be anything you want,It can be good or bad,Just so long as it happened.Then post this to your journal.See what people remember about you!do it people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1109495009362975322005-02-27T03:03:00.000-08:002005-02-27T01:04:36.266-08:00why does a part of me feel lost and alone and scared, while the other part of me is excited and free? what the hell is happening inside of my head? can i finally just leave it up to fate? please, fate, it's in your hands now....i've done what i thought i needed and what i thought was right.....if it was wrong then show me.... if it was right then help us to be the best of friends.... because i Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1108783154020187842005-02-18T21:18:00.000-08:002005-02-18T19:19:14.023-08:00wow....i just suck at this whole good girlfriend thing.....please be patient with me drew....i'll get it sometime...soon i hope....so here's the sitch on my life as we know it..... honk is two days away from being over......i took on jeremy blair's pipedream.....my cousin should be having her baby anytime soon....mommy and daddy are coming up tomorrow for honk...drew gets to meet daddy....hehehe.Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1107297180127198652005-02-01T16:32:00.000-08:002005-02-01T14:33:00.126-08:00i'm such a bitch...baby i am so sorry...
i have a family here that i will never forget/ always be with.....thank you tk for taking me in and never thinking twice...you guys are amazing...
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1106294531256050432005-01-21T01:36:00.000-08:002005-01-21T00:02:11.256-08:00classes are amazing....gonna kick my ass, but amazing.... blah... drama drama drama....i love my friends...parents oming this weekend...dad meeting drew....funny...scary... changed my major...woot! Theatre Tech/ costume technician here i come... not much to say....partying hasta HASTA come way down this semester....like not even kidding... i am going to have so much homework to do....not funny
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1105976509239112082005-01-17T09:41:00.000-08:002005-01-17T07:41:49.240-08:00So I am back in Decatur...woohoo. No actually i'm thrilled to be back, it's just so much happened yesterday it started everything off in a weird mood. My good friend Ben fell down the stairs at his fraternity and he had to go to the hospital so they could figure out what was wrong. Way to be your own interference! ;) He's ok though and him Shira, AJ and I had a surprisingly good time in the Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1103869114686636342004-12-24T00:18:00.000-08:002004-12-23T22:20:38.383-08:00Felt like being creative with the font tonight. Did it work?! So today has been filled with looking for scholarships for London, and looking at the distances between places I want to, no have to visit and London, and I am getting more excited. Can we just go this next semester? I mean really?! Please?!
Anyway, break has been amazing so far. And it's so damn nice to hear from my friends from Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1103611129428342012004-12-21T12:37:00.000-08:002004-12-20T22:38:49.430-08:00I just read my email about wther or not I passed my hurdles in acting.....and I didn't. What the hell am I going to do now?
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1103611001012127992004-12-20T22:36:00.000-08:002004-12-23T22:22:29.513-08:00Me, spiritual and thoughtful and giving? Hmm....what's your color? BLUE
You give your love and friendship unconditionaly. You enjoy long, thoughtful conversations rich in philosophy and spirituality. You are very loyal and intuitive. Find out your color at Quiz Me!
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1103216451230058912004-12-16T08:51:00.000-08:002004-12-16T09:00:51.230-08:00Yesterday was the meeting for London..... god I can't wait. It's going to be amazing going with all of my best friends. And the two faculty members coming with seem awesome (well I know Lori is fun, but the other guy seems really cool). I can't wait to go see the black forest and the eiffel tower... I just can't wait. Yesterday was also Dead Day, aka no classes and halls have to be quiet. It was Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1102925717984457062004-12-13T02:15:00.000-08:002004-12-13T00:15:17.983-08:00The show is OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I haven't felt this free in a l-o-n-g time. Except tomorrow I have a final in Voice for the Stage....then I have my jazz final...then I have a Compass test to take so I don't have to take my final in math..... then I have a presentation due in my drama history class........so yeah, I don't feel free at all now... damnit....
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1101934145904084382004-12-01T13:44:00.000-08:002004-12-01T12:49:05.906-08:00so for the first time in a very long time i find myself anticipating tms (text messages) and phone calls. it's a nice feeling... but yet at the same time i'm scared of what might happen if/when anything big happens. seeing someone in the department is a very nerve racking thing. everyone wants to know whats going on and how things are. and yes, i cant help but say sappy shit like, he's amazing...Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1100030092071572332004-11-09T11:51:00.000-08:002004-11-11T20:45:06.813-08:00what is this feeling, so sudden and new?
(teeheehee)
so hiws everyone doing? i'm good....kinda. i was doing great for like two weeks, i was catching up on my hours in the shop and i was getting everything done i needed to....unfortunatly i am in "go" week of the directing scene (go eric!) that i'm sming so all my free time is devoted to his show. i really want to know what will happen if I don'tMelissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1099271804612324272004-10-31T19:16:00.000-08:002004-10-31T17:16:44.613-08:00halloween party last night...very, very fun.... i like figuring things out. :) yay! so costume didn't turn out how i wanted so instead i whored it out a little...oh well. it was fun!!! sarah's costume however turned out to be perfect!!!!!! yay me!!! i have no idea how i pulled it together but i thank god that i did. i was sooo scared it wouldn't. anyway, life is very good right now. i made new Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1098835196890010712004-10-26T20:58:00.000-07:002004-10-26T16:59:56.890-07:00halloween costumes? what? you mean those should be done BEFORE halloween? wow, that's amazing.... hope overnight mail works. please tell me overnight mailing works. grr.....
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1098835099411501092004-10-26T18:58:00.000-07:002004-10-26T16:58:19.410-07:00i hate rain.
i miss home.
i hate my room.
i love my life.
how the hell does that work?
i need to do something different to my room. it's driving me insane. i hate the fact i have no room for anything, but i have no room to put things so i can organize other things. it's a sick circle that won't leave me be. grr...
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1098333304954604852004-10-20T23:34:00.000-07:002004-10-20T21:35:04.953-07:00opening night was tonight for Jackson.... the cast was so good....go tell your friends (if you have any) mommy's coming tomorrow! yay for family. can't wait to see her even though it's been like 3 days. i am a sad person ;) so, last night i had an amazing friend tell me things i've never heard before and it made me really happy. thank you my friend... you silenced a scary voice that was Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1097699688185858042004-10-13T15:34:00.000-07:002004-10-13T13:34:48.186-07:00I'M COMING HOME TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Call me so we can hang out!!!!!!!!!!
I want Granny's fried chicken and Mommy's chilli and her spaghetti, and toroni's pizza, and fazoli's, and bw's........mmm-mmm-m....
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1097210991828306882004-10-07T23:49:00.000-07:002004-10-07T21:49:51.826-07:00pirates of the carirben rocks my workd hard core... sweet.....action!
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1096662140369628362004-10-01T13:16:00.000-07:002004-10-01T13:22:20.370-07:00Never in my life have I given a crap about debates and politics...... until last night. Yes, my friends, I am officially a politic junky....I want to know everything and everyone. I want to know where they stand and for what they are pushing. Last night's debate was interesting in that I have never watched one. It wasn't too bad for my first. If you want to show your prefrence on here, go right Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1096440051578121812004-09-28T01:40:00.000-07:002004-09-28T23:40:51.580-07:00have you ever just layed in bed and wished someone was there to hold you......cuddle with you.....not even as a romantic prospect, you just needed to be held by someone who you knew would hold on until morning.......my door remains unlocked.....where is my person?
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1096036589469114012004-09-24T09:35:00.000-07:002004-09-24T07:36:29.470-07:00Wow, so i think I've hit a record in the laundry dep. I have gone 4 weeks without doing laundry. I have completely run out of things to wear. Not good. So I'm doing laundry as we speak...or as I type, however you want to think about it. Guess what I get to do tonight? Go home and surprise my family!!!!! It's my mommy and daddy's 25th anniversary and I was supposed to come home tomorrow after Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1095315472268512822004-09-15T23:16:00.000-07:002004-09-15T23:17:52.266-07:00who knew checking up on an old friend and trying to make sure she was safe and happy could turn me into the bad guy.....damn i hate some people from castle....
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1095312441339646672004-09-15T22:22:00.000-07:002004-09-15T22:27:21.340-07:00Jackson's first ACT is blocked and memorized. This blows my mind. The cast is amazing. I bow down to you all!!!!!
Guys are confusing and frustrating and I want to turn lesbian.....I'm done.
I have been dubbed the ASM for Much Ado About Nothing. This excites me greatly! This means that I am making a name for myself as an ASM....or maybe they didn't have anyone else to do it...either way, it's Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1094835256664995962004-09-10T09:52:00.000-07:002004-09-10T09:54:16.666-07:00somebody asked me if i could change anything in my life, what would it be...and for the first time in my life i could say "nothing".......
friends are the constants......just remember that....
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1094430467817425382004-09-05T17:26:00.000-07:002004-09-05T17:27:47.816-07:00it really isn't a big deal....i made a decision and if people judge me for that decision than they aren't worth my time.... thank you to those of my bests who were there last night, you know who you are...you did more for me last night than you know...
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1094399397905211342004-09-05T08:44:00.000-07:002004-09-05T08:49:57.906-07:00everyone said that if i act like it wasn't a big deal... no one will think it was... if i act...if i act...if i...if...if...if...
going home for a couple days... call the cell phone if you need me or want to talk....(812) 459-3824
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1094256309781264502004-09-03T19:03:00.000-07:002004-09-03T18:38:20.566-07:00whatev...curly fries make life great
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1094148806299591462004-09-02T11:06:00.000-07:002004-09-02T11:13:26.300-07:00Hello all. Haven't had much time lately to concentrate, let alone post, but I'm back at MU and I'm loving it. My classes are amazing. I have Barry for acting and I love it, I think I'm going to learn a lot from him. Still in the process of decorating my room, so if you have any posters or pictures you want on my walls for me to look at everyday, then contribute them please. I'm desperate (not Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1093928538463500782004-08-30T22:01:00.000-07:002004-08-30T22:02:18.463-07:00classes start in 9 hours for me...ass (aka advanced scene study) woohoo....
watched the BEST movies made, ok, so not really, but it's the best dancing ever....just cause it's dirrrrrty.....;)
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1093389211130463392004-08-24T16:12:00.000-07:002004-08-24T16:13:31.130-07:00Hmm... 4 days left in newburgh, then it's back to millikin. i'm so ready.
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1093288697010059222004-08-23T12:16:00.000-07:002004-08-23T12:18:17.010-07:00more craziness....too much to discuss online actually... let's just say i feel very confused about some things right now....
late night phone calls make me happy ;)
5 days til move in day......i can't wait!!!!!!!
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1093076526561967462004-08-21T01:19:00.000-07:002004-08-21T01:22:06.563-07:00who knew being me could have its perks? ;)
yay for dress fitting jeni the way it should, and yay for skirt being done...i kick ass izzle...
mike is my besstest friend ever...too bad he can be bought so easily...
a guy kissed me tonight, what the fizzle is up with that? yay for drunmken old friends whom i haven't seen forever....but seriously, who does that?
tomorrow night is going to be Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1092683825657759672004-08-16T11:59:00.000-07:002004-08-16T12:17:05.656-07:00Wow, so very exciting couple of days, well excited according to melissa, that is. On thursday morning I drove up to Aledo, IL to see one of my bests, Derek who was helping with Damn Yankees. Good show, ps. I had a blast with him, and I got to meet his friends who are very cool. I finally got to eat at Denny's and I enjoyed it very much. I had a lot of fun in Aledo. Then Friday morning I went Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1092286442548963682004-08-11T23:51:00.000-07:002004-08-11T21:54:02.546-07:00mmmmmkay, so more than 3 1/2 hours, but the rents are cool with it all, so i'm heading to the windy city!!!! or the milwauke city...whatever.
umm....can't wait to be on the road by myself for as long as i get to tomorrow (6 hours and 45 minutes) . i really am, but i would also love your call. yes you, the one person reading this tonight and/or tomorrow morning who knows about my impromptu trip. Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1092268161067134802004-08-11T16:43:00.000-07:002004-08-11T16:49:21.066-07:00So, today started and became the worst day of my summer, but after talking to some friends from school, and realizing I'm leaving tomorrow, YES tomorrow to see Derek in Damn Yankees, def. made my day better. To top that off I was talking to Cory and Arika and figured out that I can make it to Milwauke in less than 3 1/2 hours, which means that i could stay an extra day up north and go see two of Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1092032980298513942004-08-08T23:29:00.000-07:002004-08-08T23:29:40.296-07:00I love Cory Hoffmann SOOOOOOOOOO much, i want to marry him and raise many children who will become broadway stars
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1092032216952522372004-08-08T23:15:00.000-07:002004-08-08T23:16:56.953-07:00:-D
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1092032109278510542004-08-08T23:10:00.000-07:002004-08-08T23:15:09.280-07:00i like bowling
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1092031424086471452004-08-08T22:57:00.000-07:002004-08-08T23:05:33.296-07:00I don't like it when people butt their noses into buisness that is none of their concern. Why is my boss, yes I said boss, such a jackass? i really think i'm ready to go back to school. obviously i'm going to miss jeni, and the guys, and my parents, but who else.....or should i say what else is there for me here? two jobs, one where a jackass with his head up his butt is trying to run a "tight Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1091499735601403172004-08-02T19:14:00.000-07:002004-08-02T19:22:15.603-07:00So, after 2nd (that's number two folks) of being stood up, I've decided maybe Nick just isn't the right kind of guy for me. Crazy, huh?! Whodathunkit! Aww.....so cute, Melissa can make decisions, but can't spell for crap. :)
So, today has been amazing. I've gotten in touch with a LOT of people whom I love dearly but haven't had time this summer to get in touch with. It's nice to know that Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1089433777877737262004-07-09T21:26:00.000-07:002004-07-09T21:29:37.876-07:00thank you jeni for waking me up....aww...see what happens when i don't get to see you for a week?
i want to:
take a walk in downtown newburgh
get a paycheck from the restaurant
not think about responsibility while in st. louisMelissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1089230876300876232004-07-07T13:01:00.000-07:002004-07-07T13:09:34.286-07:00So, I need help. I have some stuff to fill you guys in on, then i need some advice, or at least what you think. So at work there is this amazingly cute and friendly guy. He's 19, so totally legal. ;) Anyway, I like him, and I think he likes me, but unfortunatly everybody at work (mainly my boss and manager) have taken it upon themselves to coerce us into dating. As it obviously would it is Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1088218637289203222004-06-25T19:39:00.000-07:002004-06-25T19:57:17.290-07:00So...I've been thinking lately...I know, oh no, watch out, melissa actually thinks sometimes. So, I have figured out something about myself that I really don't like. See, there are two kinds of people: 1)those of us who call others and make hardcore efforts to hang out with those they love and 2) those of us who sit around waiting for those around us to call. You all can guess which one I am. YesMelissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1086722114782726382004-06-08T12:11:00.000-07:002004-06-08T12:16:04.646-07:00So, all my whining and bitching has paid off. I got a job at Quail Crossing (however you spell that) and I have an interview at Cracker Barrel tomorrow at 3. Woohoo... so to all of you who have had to endure my complaining and frustrating whining, sorry for the earache. ANYwho, what's up world? Today I got relly motivated to do somehting, what, I don't lknow exactly, but to do something. Last Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1086630587587407972004-06-07T10:48:00.000-07:002004-06-07T10:49:47.586-07:00You know what sucks? Trying to find A JOB!!!!!!!! Seriously, out of what, maybe 20 places I've applied, NONE have confirmed me a job yet. Seriously, maybe I should just become a gas station attendant, then again, knowing my luck, I wouldn't have enough experience in being disgusting... grrrrrrrrrrrrr...Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1086458062718904262004-06-05T10:52:00.000-07:002004-06-05T10:55:06.023-07:00"Monster" has changed something in me. It is an amazing, eye opening movie that actually moved me more than scared me. All Lee wanted was to be loved. And to love. It's suppossed to be the greatest thing, remember?
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return..."Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1086408375349713552004-06-04T21:04:00.000-07:002004-06-04T21:06:15.350-07:00So, the plan to go to a concert failed horribly tonight. We missed an exit, then we were being super weird in the car and decided to rent a couple movies and hang out. Woohoo...:)Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1086018060517021782004-05-31T08:32:00.000-07:002004-05-31T08:43:29.916-07:00So, have you ever been at a place in your life where you have no idea which way to go? It's like there are 20 differen roads in front of me right now, and I'm terrified that if I pick the wrong one, my life will somehow become meaningless and unimportant. But somethings justkeep going through my mind like, what if it is my attitude that makes the path suck? What if all of them are fantastic but Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1085156056823565562004-05-21T09:08:00.000-07:002004-05-21T09:14:16.823-07:00I'M HOME!!!!!!!!! Awww....it's nice, too. I love being home, but it sucks cuz I STILL can't find a job, but hopefully I'll get a call within the next couple days.
So, the real feat of being home now is trying to get all my stuff that fit into a double room that I had to myself into my room now, which has enough stuff in it to be complete to begin with. Hmmm....that's a toughy.
So, if Arika isMelissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1084601239966751772004-05-14T23:04:00.000-07:002004-05-14T23:07:19.966-07:00I'm chillin... wow....some people are frustrating.... that's all I have to say...Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1084470284877532682004-05-13T10:44:00.000-07:002004-05-13T10:44:44.876-07:00ps....heres a pic of me since blog is being stupid....
http://www.msnusers.com/mpleiss/Documents/100%5F0609.JPGMelissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1084469522817049762004-05-13T10:24:00.001-07:002004-05-13T10:32:02.816-07:00So my first final is done. It went phenomenally!!!!!!!! (spelling is probably wrong, but you get the idea). I mean, I was actually worried bout my stagecraft final (ps, i'm an acting major for those of you who don't know) because stagecraft isn't normally one of my strong points, but this morning something exciting happened. I knew what was going on!!!!!! This is so exciting to me!!!!! Woohoo forMelissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1084469234907901292004-05-13T10:24:00.000-07:002004-05-13T10:27:14.906-07:00So my first final is done. It went phenomenally!!!!!!!! (spelling is probably wrong, but you get the idea). I mean, I was actually worried bout my stagecraft final (ps, i'm an acting major for those of you who don't know) because stagecraft isn't normally one of my strong points, but this morning something exciting happened. I knew what was going on!!!!!! This is so exciting to me!!!!! Woohoo forMelissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1084421741367977952004-05-12T21:09:00.000-07:002004-05-12T21:15:41.366-07:00Here after my dead day. When I say dead, I mean dead. I got nothing accomplished today, which I guess is kind of the point, but still. I read an email from my mom today just telling me about everyday nothingness, but for some reason it was different. I don't know if I'm growing up or if I just miss home that much, but I read into so many things my mom was saying. I could just hear her telling me Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1084214640415368862004-05-10T11:39:00.000-07:002004-05-10T11:44:00.416-07:00got back yesterday. so i'm here for another week before i can go home for good. :( i read something today though, that made me smile "forget about who doesn't like you, concentrate on those who love you, for they are the ones who will be by your side when you need them". i like that a lot. so this weekend i recieved quite a few one liners with jeni. silly rabbit...
my name is buck, and i like Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1083862469200834392004-05-06T09:48:00.000-07:002004-05-06T09:58:56.263-07:00so last night i stayed up till 5 doing a paper, and i woke up at 8:30 happy and perky. i think i've figured out how to be alive ....stay up super late and get up super early. :)
not much to report. boring week. maids was BIZARRE!!!!!!!! i LOVE the laramie project...phenomenal piece of art. really wanna see angels in america. i'm intrigued.Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1083457711193455012004-05-01T17:20:00.000-07:002004-05-01T17:35:26.590-07:00So....funny fact....my hair is the exact same color as before: and my mom LIKED it!!!!! I know...I'll let you take a breather before I continue. But really, it was cute, she said it made me look "exotic"...oh my. Whippy!!!
So last night was awesome. The guys were SO good, and all the other bands were super super nice. Good times. Plus I got to hang out with Katie and Jeni and Kendra and CaitlinMelissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1083306894394187482004-04-29T23:33:00.000-07:002004-04-29T23:40:17.700-07:00soooooooo tired....but for some reason can't fall asleep.
highlights of the weekend: going to lafayette to see my brother's band play
spending time with katie and jeni (aww...)
coming back here and partying!
am i here? is it really only 8 days of classes left? weird....i'll miss you guys when we leave :( sad day...Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1083184344766475802004-04-28T13:30:00.000-07:002004-04-28T13:36:40.543-07:00sad day here in room 201....my dark hair must go. my father came to visit and relayed to me the reaction my mother would have if i went and saw them this weekend with my near-black hair. so melissa is going to a normal...not fun ....brownish red shade that is a lot closer to my hair color, but a lot less fun. tell me, will you still love me without fun hair? :(Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1083129655567809182004-04-27T22:19:00.000-07:002004-04-27T22:25:10.653-07:00 Things I love: my friends, my amazing family, my school, my books, my movies, my alone time, showers, flowers (teeheehee i rhymed), perfume, lotion, messy rooms, clean rooms, climbing into bed after a hard day, good dreams, good rest, good life!
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1083115278375836432004-04-27T18:18:00.000-07:002004-04-27T18:25:33.310-07:00To explain about the lovely poem.....i don't mean any harm. I just had a bad day. so if you take offense to anything other than the language you need to get over it because it has nothing to do with anybody in particular. i needed to vent, so again, i'm sorry if the language offended you, but if the content made you mad, it shouldn't...have a great day guys!!!
Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1083109724289618122004-04-27T16:46:00.000-07:002004-04-27T16:52:58.843-07:00Anger raging
Inside
Close my eyes
Start to cry
You bitch
Fuck you
I do
What I want to
Not the best
Who gives a shit
At least I try
And don't quit
Don't like my acting
Kiss my ass
I'm getting better
At least I'll lastMelissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1083026287549514532004-04-26T17:37:00.000-07:002004-04-26T17:42:20.763-07:00doobedoobedooMelissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1082954790298866242004-04-25T21:45:00.000-07:002004-04-25T21:50:42.263-07:00PS- I dyed my hair....a very close shade of black, actually (by accident i promise...i was goin for dark brown) jeni, you'd be so proud right now!!!!Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1082954664022852852004-04-25T21:33:00.000-07:002004-04-25T21:48:36.013-07:00first let me thank my "good friend" who wrote me. i know god is taking care of me and i do trust him with all my heart, i just get frustrated sometimes. let me tell you why...
all i really want is something exciting to happen. i hate monotony and i'm at my finest monotone moment, at least it feels that way. i have amazing friends, the most loving and caring family, but everything has settled Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1082522833498300062004-04-20T21:37:00.000-07:002004-04-20T21:51:46.640-07:00I'm just here, wanting change....wanting something to excite me... wanting change....wanting someone who will need me....wanting softness and seduction....passion and attention...someone to believe in....
can i believe in you?
i need completeness... i need someone to care... i need someone to hold me at night and scare away all my demons that lurk under the surface...
can i need you?
i am Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1082337258167841022004-04-18T18:03:00.000-07:002004-04-18T18:18:20.750-07:00Here after an INTERESTING weekend. Things to note....no more dialing people at 5 in the morning... no more chillin in Colby's room unless I'm prepared.... always have water with me at the Gate.... don't speak my mind when I'm not myself, it causes problems that aren't necessary... sleeping on the floor next to the black futon is almost as comfy as sleeping on it... always wear comfy clothes to Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1081817802752786752004-04-12T17:49:00.000-07:002004-04-12T18:02:04.496-07:00So I'm back to school after Easter Break!!! Why I just put the exclamations I'll never know. So, I'm glad to be back, but I can't wait for it to be over. I think I'm the only one who is ready for freshman year to be over, but I def. am. I feel like I did over the summer...I'm ready for stuff to happen to me, and since stuff has kind of become a routine I'm becoming bored. I know....dude, I'm Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1081218226566302842004-04-05T19:23:00.000-07:002004-04-05T19:27:31.293-07:00ps-sorry for my last blog...i wasn't myself, if you catch my meaning! ;) Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1081065484972494992004-04-03T23:54:00.000-08:002004-04-04T00:02:45.543-08:00Tonight was so much fun!!!!!! I seriously don't know what I would do without ella here...aww....and jeni on the phone, it sucks i can't be with you, but this is better than nothing!!! i love you two so much!!!!! and to everyone else at millikin who is reading this and thinks they have ever been my friend, can I say no matter what happens i love you, and please don't take two days and let it Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1081016217428078422004-04-03T10:07:00.000-08:002004-04-03T10:20:38.950-08:00jeni thinks i'm one of the most giving people in the world....sometimes i think i'm just naive...
so, i've fallen in love with yet another musical...wild party....the big band music is absolutly amazing, and it is sexy to boot. i enjoy having people to introduce me to all these new musicals. it's kind of exciting!
tonight my brother's fantastic band is playing in carbondale illinois, but i Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1080086138958964072004-03-23T15:55:00.000-08:002004-03-23T15:59:05.966-08:00Woohoo....I love Chinese! Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1079927540710058552004-03-21T19:47:00.000-08:002004-03-21T19:55:45.216-08:00Being home is great...a little hard to get back in the groove, but oh well. Right? I know everyone here still loves me, and it's just a matter of me opening back up to them. Can I do it?! I hope!
Aww...I love PARADIGUM! They rock my world. Ok, so not literally, because they are almost all like my brothers, so that's kinda nasty, (Dirrrrrrrrrrrrty!) (teeheehee!!!!) but you know what I mean. Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1079657176276780372004-03-18T15:53:00.000-08:002004-03-18T16:49:35.826-08:00So...lately I have sounded quite not-so-together, huh? Geez, why do I react like that sometimes? Yes, I meant everything I said, I am tired of feeling lonely and used here, but something I never clearify is that every night of the three times this has happened to me I have felt amazing. Each guy has been able to get to me somehow, they just didn't want to stay. Hey, ya know.... it happens, huh?!Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5916756.post-1079510288163772812004-03-16T23:50:00.000-08:002004-03-17T00:04:31.670-08:00how the hell is it that i can be so dispensable????? why is it that one night i can be everything in someone you've ever wanted, a goddess in our own little world, and the next i am shit on your shoe? could someone tell me why my entire life i've seemed to be completely together, totally happy, but all the while wanting to be living someone elses life, how can people be so full of themselves andMelissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18012091160461260259noreply@blogger.com0